breaking out of gray

Things are working out fast and easy life is good and too easy working on multiple avenues with multiple companies one which Columbia and another Microsoft studios for two separate projects. These workings are only opportunities at this time nothing written in stone and still working out the details but the fact that I have gotten so far in such a short time is amazing to me. I want to say thank you to you all and want to let you know that I’m a eye lash shy of proving to you all, that believing in your self and pursuing you dreams with a 100% positive mind set will get you to where you want to be. I am almost there. I am also going to tell you the road ahead can sometimes be bumpy, you determine how bad. That is a challenging task for most, but it is doable, so go do it! I will too. I wish you the best and please wish me the best as well, I have some moments of gray lately dealing with new moments and new situations that are only here to better myself and my family. I believe in that and I also know that Sarah and I are suppose to be and we are proving that positivity right. she is the woman I have always wanted and needed. I am the man she needs and wants too and I am becoming that more and more. There are little bumps here and there, but we are doing something we never did before, dealing with the pain, instead of running from it or just ignoring it. This time we have each other and we are already so different from may 19th haha. It’s unbelievable no screaming no punching walls, no calling each other mean names no outbursts of cruelty. There are still some issues with sensitivity (me), irritability (me and way more her :P), Guilt trips (her and me), and some trust issues (me and slightly her) due to use dating other people while apart. IT’s mostly silliness but the most important things, love, honor, respect, honesty, Happiness (majority of the time, some moments of gray), support! support! and Support! we make each other happier than anyone will ever make us and working on making it all the time and we love each other more than anyone will ever love us. So things are great, too great my daughter is 31 weeks and is looking to pop out in January, bu she will be here the 24th or the 25th maybe the 26th or 27th of December! My b-day is the 26th of December so I have a feeling, just how I know she was a little princess!

 

I wish you all the best and thank you for all the support!

Thank you. Christian

For Sarah and Ali

 

It’s these moments that prove the impossible wrong

You know it’s been a while. So far everything is great looks like Columbia pictures has an interest in my project :D. More importantly this post will be about me and m current journey. So I am back in tucson in an apartment with the woman I love more than anything. Today though was a tough moment, I had a terrible experience. I will not put what but I will let you know it was the past coming back to bite my ass… hard. It’s all good now, but it made me question who I am. What I’ve accomplished, and my future. It is still lingering around my gut and chest. It will go away. I am proud to say that I am honored to be the person that I am. I am finally what I’ve always wanted to be, through all the mistakes I’ve made and the successes I’ve achieved. I still take things for granted, and I can’t anymore. I have become honest and honorable, and I have a butt load of integrity. I still wish everyone the best every those I want to hate and smash open their face, but I have to remember who I am and that I am proud of who I am. I believe in people and I know that they will prove my negativity wrong. To prove my negativity wrong is very easy because I am very negative not as much but it still hangs around. The problem is it is harmful to me and my family. The best thing in the world is that I can take these terrible experiences and turn them into the best moment, and have the best moments continue to flow on into my life. Trust me right now I should be pissed and crying breaking down. I did that for about an hour now haha better than spending days weeks months and years. I believe in us and in her. I just talked to her right now, and she did it again, she proved that negativity wrong.. She proved that positive greatness right. Now it’s time for me too. Wish me look everyone, this is not hard, I am making this worse than it has to be. I am proud to know that I stood taller and stronger than the person sh decided wasn’t right for her. I have to look at it like that. I am so proud to be her man, we were broken up when she dated another man, and my insecure side down plays me. The important side of me that doesn’t want to say this, says I won, she choose me when she didn’t have too. No one is me and I am no one we are all unique and amazing in our own ways, whether we show it or not. I have to say I went through the same experience no body was her. We are meant to be, whether we were 20 ffet apart or over 1000 miles we still came back to eachother, through our daughter. Love you Ali, you got dad’s head straight out of his ass, and I am sorry I doubted. My daughter is a miracle. I know this because the thought of her and her mother give me a smile in even the worse of times. These are my woman and I will never give up on them or myself again. So success in hitting me from every which way. All the best things in out there are headed my way. Thank you all for this opportunity and Thank you for following along.

Thanks Christian

For Ali (Al-Lee)

Rise above

You know it’s been an adventure since may 21st til now. I am happy to say that I have risen above the disasters. I have taken the responsibility. I controlled every outcome of those situation and always went down the road that made it worse. It is so nice to breath with out knots tearing my chest apart, and finally saying goodbye to that ugliness. I move forward finally realizing that I deserve the credit I always took away from myself. I am happy to be me, I love myself a ton. It is awesome I am overfilled with joy and extreme gratitude. Believing in myself always. That attitude change and my quest to redefine myself paid off. I am the luckiest man in the universe, because I have the greatest woman in it, that loves me more than anything and will always support, care trust and believe in me as well, always remains faithful and respectful of herself , I and our family. Truth be told I took her and our lives for granted. Instead of thanking god everyday for her, I just flew on by. Never again, Never ever again. It will and always will be different, because we make each other happier than anyone will ever make us. For that I am just thankful as thankful can be! Thank you for this chance and opportunity, to show her I am the man for her, and she is the woman for me. Thank you thank you thank you!

Okay so an update it’s time to start. My Video presentation will hit Indiegogo and Kickstarter very soon, I need your guys help to make it happen, and spread the word. I will update the blog with the links to the pages. I am going through different avenues, still haven’t heard back from Luc Besson, I will soon though I know it. Okay so the project starts now. The list of people and resources I wish to obtain and will obtain:

1. Ember labs and Mike Grier.

2. Autofuss production company

3. Jon Proudstar

4. James Cameron evaluation (I will get it)

5. Kalen Chock (Concept Art)

6. Michael McCann Composer

7. News stations and radio stations, social media, this blog and youtube promoters to promote the project and the links to Kickstarter and IndieGogo

8. A famous actor… Maybe Sam Worthington.. Worth a shot huh

9. the funding to make it possible, Almost there, I will meet my goal, and bring together more communities to make it happen.

10.  Luc Besson ( Iwill get him too)

I can do this, and I will. Of course not alone, I am going to need support, I would like to ask you if you can help in anyway, just to spread to help spread the word about redefiningmyenity and the Kickstart, Inidgogo journey!. Thank you very much for reading my posts I grammar filled errors But none the less I appreciate it and you.

I am ready to make a movie, and perhaps change the world in some positive way. My real goal with this is too , create a revolution of our own. Thank you.

About me:

1. I feel bad when I kills insects, I know ridiculous

2. I am a big softie

3. I can be mean

4. I am a fearful person

5. I am a fearless person

6. I try to love everyone and everything, I am actually very good at this.

7. I am learning a very important skill, patience

8. I face my fears and problems for the first time

9. I love being honest and having honor

10. I believe we can achieve anything.

11. I believe in everyone

12. I still respect dogs and animals as our equals

13. I eat meat and vegetables too

14. I have never smoked pot, no joke. But I have pissed myself drunk

15. I tell people I don’t cry at movies, honestly that would be untrue I cried to P.S I love you(don’t ask) and 300 “My Queen, My wife, My Love”. King Leonidas, gets me every time.

16. Movies I watched over and over as a little kid, Terminator 2: judgment day(for real), Seven Samurai, Dustin checks in, Indiana Jones! Star Wars (Big Fan, not of Hayden though)(or Jarjar), BackDraft(with my older bro), Ofcourse beauty and the beast, little mermaid, Aladdin! Lion King, True Lies, Total Recall, Die Hard (1,2,3), Jaws(~~^~~ dun dun), and a lot more.

17. I sometimes bust out with random weird humor, I actually cuss quite a bit, trying to cut it down.

19. I laugh at things people think are dumb.  laughing so hard you cry is the best. Three men that have ever made me cry laughing, My two uncles and my best friends grandpa.

20. I can be a pain in the ass

21. I have a crazy sense of willpower.

22. I am in love with the most beautiful woman in the universe.

23. I value love, over money, hope over overwhelming odds, first thoughts are always to  never limit myself.

24. I am in love with my beautiful sweet gorgeous unborn baby daughter, Aliyah Rose Caballero.

25. I want to help change the world.

My little video when I was 16: Anyone like the Predator:

http://s132.photobucket.com/albums/q16/sarge122/?action=view&current=predatorclip_0003.mp4&evt=user_media_share

My toys, I loved Metal Gear solid so at 14 I made my own video with them and edited both these myself.

http://s132.photobucket.com/albums/q16/sarge122/?action=view&current=mgs_0002.mp4&evt=user_media_share

I actually started my little videos at 12 with Steven Spielberg’s Lego movie studio set! Dang did I love that Lego set I made probably like a hundred videos, everyday before and after school weekends you name it.

At 14 I began teaching myself to use Adobe After Effects, my first skill learned was the Light saber:

Then muzzle flashes:

And explosions:

Haha I did these all around 14 to 15. Then at 15 I started doing green screen:

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Then after that I went nuts! At 18 I began getting into even crazier things:

I wanted to do this movie called VIR, will one day. It’s a superhero flick

I wanted to do my own adaptation of  Red Dawn (there already doing one, dang!)

At 17 I began getting into 3d animation and Cgi. I began working the the incredible program, E-on’s Vue Xstream! I made some wild pictures and islands and environments, sadly the computer I did it on crashed hard core and I was almost in tears when I lost it all. I began doing a lot of motion tracking, and 3d set extensions and just really fun stuff. I did this because finding some one as passionate as I was for film was hard, so I taught myself a one man show. Unfortunately that’s why I never got to do my own short film, the best was the Predator one haha. I was a determined 16 year old, my mom did the camera work on a older nikon digital camera. It worked fine! My work now is different and a little more complex. Now I work more with the camera and create new styles to adapt into film:

There was this photo contest online by Ron Howard and Canon these were the pics I submitted. I remember that day I wanted to take pictures that were of things you don’t see everyday, my sister and mom told me to go with them out into town. I said nah, i have to think about what I am going to do for pictures. Sure enough they get me to go. Something felt right about going as we started driving. I took my camera out of  its bag, and waited. I was curious to what i was going to see. My sister said I’m glad you came, your going to get your pictures. Sure enough no joke two minutes later, these abandoned hotels by the river were blazing on fire. And the fire department was working to put it out. I told my sis pull over!! I hopped out of the car and began snapping shots. No one was hurt, they were abandoned, but it was amazing to see, the heroic sight. Something you don’t see everyday:

I got the pictures I wanted, Thank the lord no one was hurt I would have felt awful. Still a Historic location was destroyed. It was really crazy to see.

The loves of my life:

My car, Max

My sweet baby girl,  Phoenix. 1 year and 2 months old and over 110 pounds

My Daughter Ali (Al-Lee)

And  of course the graceful girl, but I should ask her permission first before throwing a picture up, haha even though we are back together.

I didn’t know if I mentioned how grateful I am for her. I honestly would take up 36 posts just to write the way she makes me feel, best word for is just… wow. When they say she takes  your breath away, she really does :D . I am luckiest man in the universe. My love to Aliyah and Sarah. forever an ever ;)

By the way My Name is Christian Caballero, if I haven’t introduced myself formally or officially

This is me.

So I have to thank you all, I am very grateful for your follows and likes, and for putting up with my terrible grammar. I am learning as I go on :P

If you’d like an extra friend on face book :D

http://www.facebook.com/chris.cabbnomad

Thank you all, I wish for the best things in life to you. Christian

For Ali (Al-lee) & her beautiful mother love you both.

To paint a Dream

Hello, it’s been awhile. Don’t worry I never stopped, I have had life changing breakthroughs. I have achieved most of the beauty I wished to obtain. Love, Career, Happiness, Success, and of course wealth, we all want money. Does money determine our happiness? Nope. Is it nice to have? Yes. I have a an announcement…. I have gotten pretty much everything I every wanted except for two things on that list. They are the next step, but what I wanted. I got my world. I got to tell you I still remain naive to the successes I grasp, at first glance. I wanted to tell you, not everyone is perfect, that is already known and not what I wanted to tell you, what I wanted to say, we all have the power to change or become what we wish to be. I got her back, the woman I devoted my love too. For those that have read my very first posts, you know that graceful girl I talked about, is the very woman I am extremely grateful for. When I say I got her back I mean just that. That woman still has this way to make me feel like a champion. You already know I will never resort to that old entity that still fades into dust. One last thing I have to do, before I make us official by asking her once again, the words that brought us together for 3 years, this time our undying love, and happiness wont be overshadowed by regret, anger, and a huge rusted cell of negation. So I ask will you go out with me… again? I know her answer, and that’s why I smile, it is 3:35 in the morning and I am so dang tired, maybe not a good time to write about the moment that brings enthusiasm and effortless motivation. I want to share this with you, because the very thing I wanted I have, I have her love, her appreciation, her respect and her honor and strength. I am honored to have this moment and privilege to make these girls (my daughter too) the two happiest women (and baby) in the Universe. They deserve the best and lucky for me I can give them the best and more, and I will. So I encourage you, take that leap of faith in what ever it is you wish to succeed in. If you have succeeded already then I encourage you to throw out a helping hand, to those who wish to achieve what you have, in way, whether it be art, child birth, building a car or counting millions of dollars in your mansion. We can all help one another, that is hard for some folks, it was for me. I forgot that was my passion, to illuminate happiness and inspire individuals. I have done this already, and it is a great time, and gives me the courage and fuel to continue. This fulfills my persona and creates a moment I consider prestidigitation and breath taking. So In this I tell you all I love the graceful girl and all the astonishment and magic that radiates from her, she is so happy and beautiful, smiles and is so funny and extremely intelligent. She is my inspiration, no joke sounds cheesy I know, but she is a woman to admire she is strong, smart, caring, ferocious(when need be) and honorable. She could take on the world, the ideology and will power that has been long forgotten. Like all great powers we all have our weaknesses, hers happen to be  reality, the very one that strikes us all and can keep us down instead of up… That’s where I grasp her hand and guide the beautiful heroine to the world where success and happiness flourish, and possibilities with our dreams are as real as a mortgage bill …  I promise I will take you there, and promise never to leave you behind again. ;). So I continue and push on, the wondrous project X and it’s revolutionary contents strive forward. A company to be started has acquired a more appropriate name, my fearless and noble Eye Watch has been taken, by 100′s of companies. So I have created another, one that shines brighter and has more meaning than my previous. A huge community has come together for me, and grows bigger and bigger, these wonderful individuals wish to paint the same dream as I. Together we will. Keep an eye out for the next posts for the links to indiegogo and kickstarter :D I had to postpone the video and attack another avenue, I still have one more to check off the list before hitting up the awesome websites.  I have to tell you guys I am crazy exhausted but I am so grateful for you all, I hope something written here sparks some positive reaction inside you and brings you all the greatness this life has to offer.

Thank you. Christian

For Ali (Al-Lee) & her beautiful mother

Appreciation to you

People thank you for your support and your follows and likes. I appreciate every single person on here. You are all making a difference in my life and I am sure in others lives as well. The vote presentation is almost done, and just want to tell you all, past viewers and new viewers that I am deeply grateful for you all and wish you the best in succeeding in your goals and dreams. I am already doing it, and when I get there I can preach more cause I have done it fully. You are all very special and I deeply appreciate that and I’m sure my little girl does as well! 

Thank you all, for real thank you.

I will continue to update as more progress comes up, I am making huge differences in my life and I hope it brings you your fortune or helps you too.

KickStarter project will be under way soon, A giant film festival is taking place in my town and the friends that I have that own a coffee shop are hosting it.. Time to recruit more and put the local crew together. I can I will and I already have.

Thank you again, just wanted you guys to know your awesome and today is a badass great day.

Thanks. Christian

here comes the funding…

For Ali (Al-Lee)

Revised, and an Update

Okay my friends I have a story… I have hit a small snag, no worries it’ll be dealt with very quickly. I want to try extend my deadline to august 25th. I have much to do. Good news a story in on board. after some more work is done I will present it on here and to others for a vote on the story. I will need your help, I have to get a wide perspective. It might not have original music, since my composer is working on tracks and not sure if he has started. August 15th will be the release date for the vote. If you’d like to show other folks please feel free, please make sure you get their input. I will update how I’d like you to rate it and vote a yes on the story or a no. A no means back to the drawing board. Don’t worry the story and material will be protected before it hits on here, and will make sure people are very aware of this. Thank you very much. I have a knot in my stomach, a little nervous but I know it’ll make an impression, a good one. The story is well done, now it depends on how I word it and present it to you guys. I know you will enjoy it very much. especially you sci fi fans. There is a bit of everything for everyone. Wish me luck guys and girls, I hope to go beyond your expectations and have you floored. appreciate it very much.

For Ali

Thank you. Christian.

An emotion to create

Ok folks the time is near. August 10 th is the dead line. I will have a presentation and proposal for kick starter. 6 days to create, a video of what I can accomplish and do in 6 days. It seems to be challenging but in fact it’s not. It seems to be unrealistic, but in fact it’s not.  I got to tell you, like I have the last 10 posts life is too easy and too good. This is something we all should recognize, and I want to tell you that if I can do this without fear and take these risks and succeed (which  I will and have) you can too. There is nothing you can’t do, but remember not to have fear, it will all work out and happen. folks it is time, time for the creation inside to spill out into the world and woo the audience, that is my job and passion. For Ali (new  spelling) (pronounced Al-lee). This is all couldn’t have happened with out that little baby.

I am very proud to say that I am going to leave a mark in the world for her to see. Her dad is taking it on. I will update you very soon with pictures and posts on the making of it all. My love and sincere prayers to you all. don’t let it go, just go for it. You can and will and have, like me.

I appreciate the followers and viewers I appreciate you fully, lets do this.

Thanks. Christian

For Ali (Al-lee).

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Aliyah Rose Caballero.

I know there is a reason.

Today we find out what the baby will be, and we found out that the doctor is sure it is a girl! I knew it. I knew it, I freaking knew it! I apologize for the over done “I knew it’s”, but I am happy for my life to be with daughter that i’ll never stop loving. 

To Ally

Miss Aliyah Rose, A message from your dad. I have a small picture on my phone and currently my wall paper on my laptop of you. I talk to this picture and kiss it every night, and I hope the words I say in my head your hear. The love I feel for you and the words I express in my head to you. I want you to read this one day, I’ll copy this down no worries, it’ll stand the test of times. I just wanted to let you know I am telling the world how much I love you. No matter how much I try and keep it together, the thought of just  entering this world and growing up, is very important to me. I am a passionate guy no argument there. I have to tell you that you are the very inspiration that drives me forward in this wild crazy journey. When your Dad reaches his moment, the one I dream of everyday besides meeting you ;). Your Dad will let everyone know you are the reason for all the magic that will surround. I love you already and I will love you far beyond my time on this earth. you are the special light that guides me :) For Aliyah Rose.

Christian Caballero, Love Dad.

Everyone I am so excited, and I pray every day for my daughter. I ask that if you can can pray, or how ever you speak to your god for positive protection for my daughter, and for your loved ones as well. If you do not believe in religion or God or any God, please do not take offense to this, just wish her luck ;). I pray for her, and for all of you to have your fortune. I am about to have mine, time to get rolling.

 

Good night folks

Christian Caballero.

Follow the dream

Take risks… I have done this… Failure is an option… ? it is but fear is not… I am going to take the biggest risk of all. I have no idea where to start, but I am going to start with the people that know how too. I will set limitless goals to my track. I will succeed. In December 2012 I will reach the goal I have in mind. Big, Bigger than the world we live. Expanding into the far reaches. I believe in this. I am young, but I am determined and I am. For Ally.

Again Anyway you can help Finger in the right direction will be enough. I will never give up. I will meet my goal. I can, and I will, and I already have. Time to practice this preach.

Wish me the best and the most luck you can. I step ouit now, and tomorrow even further. To be fearless, is to overcome the fears we feel and the fears we will encounter. Don’t hide from the challenge, and don’t limit yourself.

Fear is not an option talking to who ever, asking who ever, making these films, kickstarter or more. I am going to pursue every avenue. Eye Watch your dreams are beginning to fade into reality, and out of my creative world. Let’s make magic, and even more. Lets change the world.

I can… Watch

Thank you

Christian Caballero.

For Ally.

The Warrior

Watching the world fall around me, and yet I can still breath. I still move forward, I walk out into a dark vast Valley. Submerged in the deepest pits of agony. I realize that I relied to much on an outside source, instead of myself. I make mistakes. I have encountered people who are inspirational in every way. Most are the women, that can die inside and crumble and still have the courage smile and know there is better for them. I admire this quality, I admire that more than anything, it is strength it is honor all the things men acquire but are not made with. I resemble honor I do know and honesty, I am so proud of myself, because I live with decency so much care. I lost that one time, I forgot who I was and where I came from. I gave up on becoming the person I needed to be. I found him and again it tries to slip out. I won’t let it go, I have it held tight. I have myself and the glorious family and friends and people I appreciate, appreciate more than anything in this world. I will always be there, watching from a distance and being their for that sweet angel. I pray for my daughter’s well being and I pray that she be born, I know she will, I pray that if anything is too happen, god take me in her place. I pray that my child grows old and lives with honesty, honor and respect, for life, herself, and others I will die for that. I know she will, her mother is a great example, a tough fierce woman who leaps and bounds over life’s toughest. Dear Ally Dad Always thinks of you everyday. The mother is 15 weeks pregnant. I know that this is a bit much but for an apple sized baby, but she is my apple sized baby. I want her and the world to know what I was thinking and doing this exact moment in life. Something people don’t know about me.. I have moments of anger and blame others for my faults and my situations, no one to blame but me. I bring about the pits of agony. The best part I pull myself out. I have mentioned my moment in life that have thrown me to the sides, a boy watching the world go by as stood and watched, the feeling of lone hit so hard, it molded me, it created this being of rage and self pitty. Blaming the world was all I knew and hating every moment. The deepest darkest roots of me I have to confront and conquer it. I had to jump back in that dark place hidden deep down, and remove it. I know who to hold responsible for all the times in life I fell and crushed, all the tears, all the destruction, all the pitty, all the hate. The finger goes into the mirror, I look into it and see a different man* the culprit was me, the masked phantom of self destruction, destroying the very foundation built by a  woman, a woman that loved me dearly and showed me values. One’s that most children don’t get to experience. This woman is the true Hero in my heart, I love you

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And I am sorry I tried to break down the person that you help build. I kept the strength and the love, and the respect the kindness, I lost the honor and the honesty and integrity, I lost them for a long while. I apologize to you and my Mother and Father. I can’t do anything for my past but forgive myself and move forward onto a new day and brighter future, one I am creating. A career in grasp with a passion that ensures my daughter the security for 10 life times. I am I will and I already have. I have honor, I have honesty, I have integrity. I am a good person, and I love who I am. Can’t respect my giving cash to bums, can’t respect my giving cheap ass training sessions to folks, can’t respect my decisions in trust, well then I tell you… you don’t have too, but have a great day ;). What makes me happy makes me happy.

To you I tell, give life a chance , for those who don’t, for those who feel it is over and done. No matter the situation. Love, War, Poverty, Death(loved one). Life has a meaning and a purpose. Respect it and go for it. I believe we all can. everyone has the power to make a change in their lives. Good night world

For Ally.

Christian Caballero.