breaking out of gray

Things are working out fast and easy life is good and too easy working on multiple avenues with multiple companies one which Columbia and another Microsoft studios for two separate projects. These workings are only opportunities at this time nothing written in stone and still working out the details but the fact that I have gotten so far in such a short time is amazing to me. I want to say thank you to you all and want to let you know that I’m a eye lash shy of proving to you all, that believing in your self and pursuing you dreams with a 100% positive mind set will get you to where you want to be. I am almost there. I am also going to tell you the road ahead can sometimes be bumpy, you determine how bad. That is a challenging task for most, but it is doable, so go do it! I will too. I wish you the best and please wish me the best as well, I have some moments of gray lately dealing with new moments and new situations that are only here to better myself and my family. I believe in that and I also know that Sarah and I are suppose to be and we are proving that positivity right. she is the woman I have always wanted and needed. I am the man she needs and wants too and I am becoming that more and more. There are little bumps here and there, but we are doing something we never did before, dealing with the pain, instead of running from it or just ignoring it. This time we have each other and we are already so different from may 19th haha. It’s unbelievable no screaming no punching walls, no calling each other mean names no outbursts of cruelty. There are still some issues with sensitivity (me), irritability (me and way more her :P), Guilt trips (her and me), and some trust issues (me and slightly her) due to use dating other people while apart. IT’s mostly silliness but the most important things, love, honor, respect, honesty, Happiness (majority of the time, some moments of gray), support! support! and Support! we make each other happier than anyone will ever make us and working on making it all the time and we love each other more than anyone will ever love us. So things are great, too great my daughter is 31 weeks and is looking to pop out in January, bu she will be here the 24th or the 25th maybe the 26th or 27th of December! My b-day is the 26th of December so I have a feeling, just how I know she was a little princess!

 

I wish you all the best and thank you for all the support!

Thank you. Christian

For Sarah and Ali

 

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It’s these moments that prove the impossible wrong

You know it’s been a while. So far everything is great looks like Columbia pictures has an interest in my project :D. More importantly this post will be about me and m current journey. So I am back in tucson in an apartment with the woman I love more than anything. Today though was a tough moment, I had a terrible experience. I will not put what but I will let you know it was the past coming back to bite my ass… hard. It’s all good now, but it made me question who I am. What I’ve accomplished, and my future. It is still lingering around my gut and chest. It will go away. I am proud to say that I am honored to be the person that I am. I am finally what I’ve always wanted to be, through all the mistakes I’ve made and the successes I’ve achieved. I still take things for granted, and I can’t anymore. I have become honest and honorable, and I have a butt load of integrity. I still wish everyone the best every those I want to hate and smash open their face, but I have to remember who I am and that I am proud of who I am. I believe in people and I know that they will prove my negativity wrong. To prove my negativity wrong is very easy because I am very negative not as much but it still hangs around. The problem is it is harmful to me and my family. The best thing in the world is that I can take these terrible experiences and turn them into the best moment, and have the best moments continue to flow on into my life. Trust me right now I should be pissed and crying breaking down. I did that for about an hour now haha better than spending days weeks months and years. I believe in us and in her. I just talked to her right now, and she did it again, she proved that negativity wrong.. She proved that positive greatness right. Now it’s time for me too. Wish me look everyone, this is not hard, I am making this worse than it has to be. I am proud to know that I stood taller and stronger than the person sh decided wasn’t right for her. I have to look at it like that. I am so proud to be her man, we were broken up when she dated another man, and my insecure side down plays me. The important side of me that doesn’t want to say this, says I won, she choose me when she didn’t have too. No one is me and I am no one we are all unique and amazing in our own ways, whether we show it or not. I have to say I went through the same experience no body was her. We are meant to be, whether we were 20 ffet apart or over 1000 miles we still came back to eachother, through our daughter. Love you Ali, you got dad’s head straight out of his ass, and I am sorry I doubted. My daughter is a miracle. I know this because the thought of her and her mother give me a smile in even the worse of times. These are my woman and I will never give up on them or myself again. So success in hitting me from every which way. All the best things in out there are headed my way. Thank you all for this opportunity and Thank you for following along.

Thanks Christian

For Ali (Al-Lee)

Rise above

You know it’s been an adventure since may 21st til now. I am happy to say that I have risen above the disasters. I have taken the responsibility. I controlled every outcome of those situation and always went down the road that made it worse. It is so nice to breath with out knots tearing my chest apart, and finally saying goodbye to that ugliness. I move forward finally realizing that I deserve the credit I always took away from myself. I am happy to be me, I love myself a ton. It is awesome I am overfilled with joy and extreme gratitude. Believing in myself always. That attitude change and my quest to redefine myself paid off. I am the luckiest man in the universe, because I have the greatest woman in it, that loves me more than anything and will always support, care trust and believe in me as well, always remains faithful and respectful of herself , I and our family. Truth be told I took her and our lives for granted. Instead of thanking god everyday for her, I just flew on by. Never again, Never ever again. It will and always will be different, because we make each other happier than anyone will ever make us. For that I am just thankful as thankful can be! Thank you for this chance and opportunity, to show her I am the man for her, and she is the woman for me. Thank you thank you thank you!

Okay so an update it’s time to start. My Video presentation will hit Indiegogo and Kickstarter very soon, I need your guys help to make it happen, and spread the word. I will update the blog with the links to the pages. I am going through different avenues, still haven’t heard back from Luc Besson, I will soon though I know it. Okay so the project starts now. The list of people and resources I wish to obtain and will obtain:

1. Ember labs and Mike Grier.

2. Autofuss production company

3. Jon Proudstar

4. James Cameron evaluation (I will get it)

5. Kalen Chock (Concept Art)

6. Michael McCann Composer

7. News stations and radio stations, social media, this blog and youtube promoters to promote the project and the links to Kickstarter and IndieGogo

8. A famous actor… Maybe Sam Worthington.. Worth a shot huh

9. the funding to make it possible, Almost there, I will meet my goal, and bring together more communities to make it happen.

10.  Luc Besson ( Iwill get him too)

I can do this, and I will. Of course not alone, I am going to need support, I would like to ask you if you can help in anyway, just to spread to help spread the word about redefiningmyenity and the Kickstart, Inidgogo journey!. Thank you very much for reading my posts I grammar filled errors But none the less I appreciate it and you.

I am ready to make a movie, and perhaps change the world in some positive way. My real goal with this is too , create a revolution of our own. Thank you.

About me:

1. I feel bad when I kills insects, I know ridiculous

2. I am a big softie

3. I can be mean

4. I am a fearful person

5. I am a fearless person

6. I try to love everyone and everything, I am actually very good at this.

7. I am learning a very important skill, patience

8. I face my fears and problems for the first time

9. I love being honest and having honor

10. I believe we can achieve anything.

11. I believe in everyone

12. I still respect dogs and animals as our equals

13. I eat meat and vegetables too

14. I have never smoked pot, no joke. But I have pissed myself drunk

15. I tell people I don’t cry at movies, honestly that would be untrue I cried to P.S I love you(don’t ask) and 300 “My Queen, My wife, My Love”. King Leonidas, gets me every time.

16. Movies I watched over and over as a little kid, Terminator 2: judgment day(for real), Seven Samurai, Dustin checks in, Indiana Jones! Star Wars (Big Fan, not of Hayden though)(or Jarjar), BackDraft(with my older bro), Ofcourse beauty and the beast, little mermaid, Aladdin! Lion King, True Lies, Total Recall, Die Hard (1,2,3), Jaws(~~^~~ dun dun), and a lot more.

17. I sometimes bust out with random weird humor, I actually cuss quite a bit, trying to cut it down.

19. I laugh at things people think are dumb.  laughing so hard you cry is the best. Three men that have ever made me cry laughing, My two uncles and my best friends grandpa.

20. I can be a pain in the ass

21. I have a crazy sense of willpower.

22. I am in love with the most beautiful woman in the universe.

23. I value love, over money, hope over overwhelming odds, first thoughts are always to  never limit myself.

24. I am in love with my beautiful sweet gorgeous unborn baby daughter, Aliyah Rose Caballero.

25. I want to help change the world.

My little video when I was 16: Anyone like the Predator:

http://s132.photobucket.com/albums/q16/sarge122/?action=view&current=predatorclip_0003.mp4&evt=user_media_share

My toys, I loved Metal Gear solid so at 14 I made my own video with them and edited both these myself.

http://s132.photobucket.com/albums/q16/sarge122/?action=view&current=mgs_0002.mp4&evt=user_media_share

I actually started my little videos at 12 with Steven Spielberg’s Lego movie studio set! Dang did I love that Lego set I made probably like a hundred videos, everyday before and after school weekends you name it.

At 14 I began teaching myself to use Adobe After Effects, my first skill learned was the Light saber:

Then muzzle flashes:

And explosions:

Haha I did these all around 14 to 15. Then at 15 I started doing green screen:

beautiful

Then after that I went nuts! At 18 I began getting into even crazier things:

I wanted to do this movie called VIR, will one day. It’s a superhero flick

I wanted to do my own adaptation of  Red Dawn (there already doing one, dang!)

At 17 I began getting into 3d animation and Cgi. I began working the the incredible program, E-on’s Vue Xstream! I made some wild pictures and islands and environments, sadly the computer I did it on crashed hard core and I was almost in tears when I lost it all. I began doing a lot of motion tracking, and 3d set extensions and just really fun stuff. I did this because finding some one as passionate as I was for film was hard, so I taught myself a one man show. Unfortunately that’s why I never got to do my own short film, the best was the Predator one haha. I was a determined 16 year old, my mom did the camera work on a older nikon digital camera. It worked fine! My work now is different and a little more complex. Now I work more with the camera and create new styles to adapt into film:

There was this photo contest online by Ron Howard and Canon these were the pics I submitted. I remember that day I wanted to take pictures that were of things you don’t see everyday, my sister and mom told me to go with them out into town. I said nah, i have to think about what I am going to do for pictures. Sure enough they get me to go. Something felt right about going as we started driving. I took my camera out of  its bag, and waited. I was curious to what i was going to see. My sister said I’m glad you came, your going to get your pictures. Sure enough no joke two minutes later, these abandoned hotels by the river were blazing on fire. And the fire department was working to put it out. I told my sis pull over!! I hopped out of the car and began snapping shots. No one was hurt, they were abandoned, but it was amazing to see, the heroic sight. Something you don’t see everyday:

I got the pictures I wanted, Thank the lord no one was hurt I would have felt awful. Still a Historic location was destroyed. It was really crazy to see.

The loves of my life:

My car, Max

My sweet baby girl,  Phoenix. 1 year and 2 months old and over 110 pounds

My Daughter Ali (Al-Lee)

And  of course the graceful girl, but I should ask her permission first before throwing a picture up, haha even though we are back together.

I didn’t know if I mentioned how grateful I am for her. I honestly would take up 36 posts just to write the way she makes me feel, best word for is just… wow. When they say she takes  your breath away, she really does :D . I am luckiest man in the universe. My love to Aliyah and Sarah. forever an ever ;)

By the way My Name is Christian Caballero, if I haven’t introduced myself formally or officially

This is me.

So I have to thank you all, I am very grateful for your follows and likes, and for putting up with my terrible grammar. I am learning as I go on :P

If you’d like an extra friend on face book :D

http://www.facebook.com/chris.cabbnomad

Thank you all, I wish for the best things in life to you. Christian

For Ali (Al-lee) & her beautiful mother love you both.

Appreciation to you

People thank you for your support and your follows and likes. I appreciate every single person on here. You are all making a difference in my life and I am sure in others lives as well. The vote presentation is almost done, and just want to tell you all, past viewers and new viewers that I am deeply grateful for you all and wish you the best in succeeding in your goals and dreams. I am already doing it, and when I get there I can preach more cause I have done it fully. You are all very special and I deeply appreciate that and I’m sure my little girl does as well! 

Thank you all, for real thank you.

I will continue to update as more progress comes up, I am making huge differences in my life and I hope it brings you your fortune or helps you too.

KickStarter project will be under way soon, A giant film festival is taking place in my town and the friends that I have that own a coffee shop are hosting it.. Time to recruit more and put the local crew together. I can I will and I already have.

Thank you again, just wanted you guys to know your awesome and today is a badass great day.

Thanks. Christian

here comes the funding…

For Ali (Al-Lee)

Revised, and an Update

Okay my friends I have a story… I have hit a small snag, no worries it’ll be dealt with very quickly. I want to try extend my deadline to august 25th. I have much to do. Good news a story in on board. after some more work is done I will present it on here and to others for a vote on the story. I will need your help, I have to get a wide perspective. It might not have original music, since my composer is working on tracks and not sure if he has started. August 15th will be the release date for the vote. If you’d like to show other folks please feel free, please make sure you get their input. I will update how I’d like you to rate it and vote a yes on the story or a no. A no means back to the drawing board. Don’t worry the story and material will be protected before it hits on here, and will make sure people are very aware of this. Thank you very much. I have a knot in my stomach, a little nervous but I know it’ll make an impression, a good one. The story is well done, now it depends on how I word it and present it to you guys. I know you will enjoy it very much. especially you sci fi fans. There is a bit of everything for everyone. Wish me luck guys and girls, I hope to go beyond your expectations and have you floored. appreciate it very much.

For Ali

Thank you. Christian.

An emotion to create

Ok folks the time is near. August 10 th is the dead line. I will have a presentation and proposal for kick starter. 6 days to create, a video of what I can accomplish and do in 6 days. It seems to be challenging but in fact it’s not. It seems to be unrealistic, but in fact it’s not.  I got to tell you, like I have the last 10 posts life is too easy and too good. This is something we all should recognize, and I want to tell you that if I can do this without fear and take these risks and succeed (which  I will and have) you can too. There is nothing you can’t do, but remember not to have fear, it will all work out and happen. folks it is time, time for the creation inside to spill out into the world and woo the audience, that is my job and passion. For Ali (new  spelling) (pronounced Al-lee). This is all couldn’t have happened with out that little baby.

I am very proud to say that I am going to leave a mark in the world for her to see. Her dad is taking it on. I will update you very soon with pictures and posts on the making of it all. My love and sincere prayers to you all. don’t let it go, just go for it. You can and will and have, like me.

I appreciate the followers and viewers I appreciate you fully, lets do this.

Thanks. Christian

For Ali (Al-lee).

Image

Aliyah Rose Caballero.

Watching it begin…

The creative elements that I bring, are starting to show their way. My success rides on me, all this depends on me. It’s a wonderful feeling. I am going to pitch my idea to kickstarter.com. I always ask I am going to need help. I talked to my daughter yesterday for the time yesterday. I really don’t care what my baby decides to be boy girl. I promised her I would and I could and I have. I am going to succeed for my daughter and her mother. I promised and I am going to keep it. I see y chance and I am going for it. Sprinting a million miles for it. I am a machine built on faith an love and hope. I will do this. I need the help, I am pulling together a crew and it needs to be larger. I ask for artists of all types to join me in this. I can’t offer anything but recognition, I am working on a project that will involve people from all around the world. Bringing us together to succeed. I know it will happen and it already has. You want to be apart of this. The project deals with 6 different genre’s I plan on mastering, with your help any you can offer, it will be more than mastered. It will  be a revolution. This I can promise you.

Christian Caballero.

Creating this world, and inspiring.

Ok So today I contact more and get more contacts, I am still working on pulling together the crew. So far everything is heading in the right direction for just starting this journey 5 days ago, well really starting, Thursday haha. I have a plan a plan to use KickStarter a website recommended to me by an acquaintance. I have another place to try for funding Cinereach. I am still unsure of how I will get the funding, I am open to any suggestions at all. I know I will do this project, and I know i will have the crew and I know I will have the budget and I know I will succeed. I know it. I will do this. i ask you guys for help, any help will work. Any suggestions advice anything you can do will be amazing. I have tons of stories. The plan of execution is to make short sequences and promote them, going into the areas I can cover, form genre’s to emotions to story line. I am still working on the fine details but if anyone knows of a way that is great or better than film festivals or youtube, or how you would promote you your film (vision), please I am open to suggestions. I am positive and strong, so I’m going to continue on, I have to play this smart, because this task is a toughy, I’m going against all odds, but am I really? Logically and societal thinking says yeah, going against outstanding odds. No one has said unlikely, which is correct. What is unlikely, no one has said unrealistic, what is realistic, flying through the sky, we have airplanes, going into space, we have done that too, well as far as we know. Moving things with your mind using the force , melting weapons with your mind. Who said that is unrealistic. It could be, we don’t know that, to me it’s that mentality that keeps us behind and not forward. Every piece of technology and scientific break through and creation, were all thoughts, do you think Thomas Edison thought we’d have a telephone that could navigate us through the country, or we could have a video conference on our phones. Those were all visions, so why in the scientific community is it always realistic but in the art or sports it’s always unrealistic. I’ll tell you what when I do this, and I succeed in my dream, I will tell the world, I promise this, that nothing, in this world ,m I mean nothing is impossible, it might seem unlikely and unreasonable, but it is in no way, unlikely. Success is always achieved by people with the attitude that I just did it. I have heard and read that they just went for it. Didn’t fall hostage to negativity an doubt, they thrived off of their knowledge and they just knew, they were positive and worked hard, they had integrity. This journey isn’t impossible or unlikely. Nothing is, it might be hard, but it is in fact do able and it is in fact going to be done by me and others that want to pursue and have the drive. Excuse my rant, I just want to let people know that we can follow our dreams, we can start billion dollar companies, we can paint the greatest painting ever, we can run a 95 yard touchdown to win it, we can sing and have a crowd scream to the sound of our voice, we can invent the a flying car, we can study 8 years and help people that are sick, we can argue a case for O.J, we can sit in a ship and fly so high the blue turns to black, and stars illuminate and appears out of the blackness. We can do anything we want, Even become the Next Leader of a country, write the best book, inspire the world and change the way humans think towards one another. We have this power, it all starts as seeds growing in our minds, expanding out. I believe in this, I believe in people. I believe we have the will and power to change our lives and us no matter what situation, no matter who says what, we have that power. We can, we will. I can, and I will. I ask for you help, and I am inspired and determined, not only for my baby, but me too, and for people. I know people are ugly in worse ways than others, but we all have goodness in us ,an we all have that power to choose, it’s never hopeless, unless your brain dead or dead. I believe in our dreams and I know we can all do it. No matter money or anything, Money is a big deal but we will all find ways to earn it. Not impossible or unlikely either, we all have it in us, and we all have the resources to do it. We do indeed. I hope my ranting doesn’t piss people off haha, I don’t mean to offend, but I mean to inspire. I need help for sure haha, If anyone in anyway can help, please do. please help in every way you can, Advice, Suggestions, pointing me in the right directions all that will be more that perfect and amazing. Thank you guys very much I appreciate it more than anything. When I do this you will be apart of this. viewers , likes, followers, people helping, you all are greatly appreciated, thank you very much guys, I mean that from the bottom of my heart.

Thanks

Christian.  Excuse my writing I have to get to bed haha, got to wake up at 5 and wanted to throw this out there, before bed. Good night folks 🙂

Pursuing a dream.

It’s great feeling. Anybody can open their eyes, and watch their world, fall, and rise. Focusing on it’s rise, is like watching the stars appear while the sun sets. Make that wish on the first star I saw. I always had it in me. Now applying it is an accomplishment I just reached. Doubts still try and bloom in my stomach, but my POSITIVE attitude will accomplish it all. I know this, my dream and passion will happen. Your support is important to me, all the support is much appreciated, and I’m sure there will be more and to you I truly thank you. My success starts here. I hope for all who read this can apply the method and mind set to any situation in life. It is honestly true we make it harder than it is, life is an unpainted canvas and we through on the paint. We paint our pictures, and we can always make a new canvas or re paint over the old, there is no limitation. Always a way. Everyone in this planet has a challenge we are all connected and have so much in common we all have hurt or hurt, we all have had great moments, we all think, feel, and experience. Humans have good and bad’s to them, ugliness, and beauty. I hope that my child can live in this life with sense of fearlessness. The only fearless their is. Feeling fear is apart of life and won’t ever go away, we all will always have fear and new fears. It’s the people that can overcome those fears and face them continue on through it all. That’s a fearless individual. We all know this and do it everyday. People don’t ever give them self the credit they deserve and pride on the weakness, and others pride on the delusion of power. Honesty, Faith, Honor, Loyalty, Integrity, Determination, Love. I believe these exist in all of us. This is my first steps in a new direction, I sent my old negative self on his way.

So now I focus on the dream, for me and my baby. My baby is my inspiration so I’am going to do this, so when she opens her eyes for the first time, she’ll have a father waiting there to hold and kiss her, and let her know it’s all ok daddy did it. I have little time, but that isn’t unrealistic. I can do this and have the establishment by then or be close to it’s way. Either way before the age of 24 I will have my dream in hand. I will do this, not alone though. That is the truth. Help and advice is needed, not alone. I will forever has this team in my heart and repay them in the greatest ways. I promise. This is how it all starts, I know my outcome, I just don’t know how it will happen, a true mystery. I honestly don’t ask for help I should have before, but I didn’t want to bug anyone, or make anyone upset, I still don’t but now that I have a little one on the way, I have to pull all the resources, I’m going to be honest I’m hoping that this blog will help, I hope people will read and see who I am in these writings, crappy writings but writings.  I have to do what i have to for me but my baby too. I repeat myself a lot haha. I ask the viewers for your help, advice, or connections to people who love the industry and are willing to help in various ways. Advice, guidance in the right direction anything will help. I have to pull this card, because I have to have a million options open so I can get a bite. I appreciate you guys and your appreciation for this blog. You inspire me and I really hope I inspire you and can help make your days good. Ha dang I have changed a bunch. Thank you guys I appreciate the help that you have already offered.

Thanks.

Christian Caballero.

The world and this secret.

Rhonda Byrne wrote “The Secret” it is a great book, the best you can read, but I warn you, you have to be willing to learn and accept all that it says, no matter how insane it may seem to you, but it gave me this feeling of happiness and positive attitude. You know before I broke up with my ex I was totally negative, I would trash on stuff just to be mean, and be an ass and make her and others feel bad for no reason but jealousy and ignorance and stubborn rebel for no reason. Asshole me, haha well thanks to life and it’s ultimate wisdom, I have changed, This journey is the start to something huge, I have an impact on people I meet, helping people various people, people with problems and sickness. I support them, strangers I can relate and give them the words of encouragement and now the comfort of listening and understanding their persona. People are amazing, everyone you see around you has their own deals, problems that fill them. Most are good at hiding it and being blinded by their own selves. To tell you the truth, Acceptance makes all the difference, being truthful to yourself, knowing that no matter what happens in life it will always work. You, me everyone has the power to overcome. Mental, minds are all attacking us in different ways, crying your self to sleep is way for your mind to evoke emotion and seeing that perspective differently, will change your outlook. Today I sat out side under the canopied trees sun light hitting my face, thinking of the words I read. “my good thoughts are strong and over come all my negative thoughts, my negative thoughts are weak and will always be weak”. My positive thoughts are the strongest in the universe, and my negativity is the weakest. Overcome, believe it or not the same house I’ve been in for the last month and a half feels different, the mood changes, same place. It’s my mind set obviously. Being positive and telling your self those good positive thoughts over come and everything is going to be fine and I will achieve my dreams. I will forgive all, I will love all, I will appreciate all, I will take this life of mine and make it the best and live my dream. My daughter or son haha is a part of this. It’s amazing how everything works. Most would see this as a travesty but it’s a miracle and a blessing. I am so excited for the next steps, my life isn’t ending it’s starting the new chapter. I look very forward to it. I will have my success and my childs respect. I love you little kid, don’t forget ;). 

 

Ok So onto the news the team is working in five different cities and states. I need to get more info. Any one who reads this blogs and is into the film scene or knows someone, please have them contact me, I’m pulling all my resources. I can do this, Any advice or help or anything will be greatly appreciated.

 

Thank you all

Christian.