breaking out of gray

Things are working out fast and easy life is good and too easy working on multiple avenues with multiple companies one which Columbia and another Microsoft studios for two separate projects. These workings are only opportunities at this time nothing written in stone and still working out the details but the fact that I have gotten so far in such a short time is amazing to me. I want to say thank you to you all and want to let you know that I’m a eye lash shy of proving to you all, that believing in your self and pursuing you dreams with a 100% positive mind set will get you to where you want to be. I am almost there. I am also going to tell you the road ahead can sometimes be bumpy, you determine how bad. That is a challenging task for most, but it is doable, so go do it! I will too. I wish you the best and please wish me the best as well, I have some moments of gray lately dealing with new moments and new situations that are only here to better myself and my family. I believe in that and I also know that Sarah and I are suppose to be and we are proving that positivity right. she is the woman I have always wanted and needed. I am the man she needs and wants too and I am becoming that more and more. There are little bumps here and there, but we are doing something we never did before, dealing with the pain, instead of running from it or just ignoring it. This time we have each other and we are already so different from may 19th haha. It’s unbelievable no screaming no punching walls, no calling each other mean names no outbursts of cruelty. There are still some issues with sensitivity (me), irritability (me and way more her :P), Guilt trips (her and me), and some trust issues (me and slightly her) due to use dating other people while apart. IT’s mostly silliness but the most important things, love, honor, respect, honesty, Happiness (majority of the time, some moments of gray), support! support! and Support! we make each other happier than anyone will ever make us and working on making it all the time and we love each other more than anyone will ever love us. So things are great, too great my daughter is 31 weeks and is looking to pop out in January, bu she will be here the 24th or the 25th maybe the 26th or 27th of December! My b-day is the 26th of December so I have a feeling, just how I know she was a little princess!

 

I wish you all the best and thank you for all the support!

Thank you. Christian

For Sarah and Ali

 

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It’s these moments that prove the impossible wrong

You know it’s been a while. So far everything is great looks like Columbia pictures has an interest in my project :D. More importantly this post will be about me and m current journey. So I am back in tucson in an apartment with the woman I love more than anything. Today though was a tough moment, I had a terrible experience. I will not put what but I will let you know it was the past coming back to bite my ass… hard. It’s all good now, but it made me question who I am. What I’ve accomplished, and my future. It is still lingering around my gut and chest. It will go away. I am proud to say that I am honored to be the person that I am. I am finally what I’ve always wanted to be, through all the mistakes I’ve made and the successes I’ve achieved. I still take things for granted, and I can’t anymore. I have become honest and honorable, and I have a butt load of integrity. I still wish everyone the best every those I want to hate and smash open their face, but I have to remember who I am and that I am proud of who I am. I believe in people and I know that they will prove my negativity wrong. To prove my negativity wrong is very easy because I am very negative not as much but it still hangs around. The problem is it is harmful to me and my family. The best thing in the world is that I can take these terrible experiences and turn them into the best moment, and have the best moments continue to flow on into my life. Trust me right now I should be pissed and crying breaking down. I did that for about an hour now haha better than spending days weeks months and years. I believe in us and in her. I just talked to her right now, and she did it again, she proved that negativity wrong.. She proved that positive greatness right. Now it’s time for me too. Wish me look everyone, this is not hard, I am making this worse than it has to be. I am proud to know that I stood taller and stronger than the person sh decided wasn’t right for her. I have to look at it like that. I am so proud to be her man, we were broken up when she dated another man, and my insecure side down plays me. The important side of me that doesn’t want to say this, says I won, she choose me when she didn’t have too. No one is me and I am no one we are all unique and amazing in our own ways, whether we show it or not. I have to say I went through the same experience no body was her. We are meant to be, whether we were 20 ffet apart or over 1000 miles we still came back to eachother, through our daughter. Love you Ali, you got dad’s head straight out of his ass, and I am sorry I doubted. My daughter is a miracle. I know this because the thought of her and her mother give me a smile in even the worse of times. These are my woman and I will never give up on them or myself again. So success in hitting me from every which way. All the best things in out there are headed my way. Thank you all for this opportunity and Thank you for following along.

Thanks Christian

For Ali (Al-Lee)

Rise above

You know it’s been an adventure since may 21st til now. I am happy to say that I have risen above the disasters. I have taken the responsibility. I controlled every outcome of those situation and always went down the road that made it worse. It is so nice to breath with out knots tearing my chest apart, and finally saying goodbye to that ugliness. I move forward finally realizing that I deserve the credit I always took away from myself. I am happy to be me, I love myself a ton. It is awesome I am overfilled with joy and extreme gratitude. Believing in myself always. That attitude change and my quest to redefine myself paid off. I am the luckiest man in the universe, because I have the greatest woman in it, that loves me more than anything and will always support, care trust and believe in me as well, always remains faithful and respectful of herself , I and our family. Truth be told I took her and our lives for granted. Instead of thanking god everyday for her, I just flew on by. Never again, Never ever again. It will and always will be different, because we make each other happier than anyone will ever make us. For that I am just thankful as thankful can be! Thank you for this chance and opportunity, to show her I am the man for her, and she is the woman for me. Thank you thank you thank you!

Okay so an update it’s time to start. My Video presentation will hit Indiegogo and Kickstarter very soon, I need your guys help to make it happen, and spread the word. I will update the blog with the links to the pages. I am going through different avenues, still haven’t heard back from Luc Besson, I will soon though I know it. Okay so the project starts now. The list of people and resources I wish to obtain and will obtain:

1. Ember labs and Mike Grier.

2. Autofuss production company

3. Jon Proudstar

4. James Cameron evaluation (I will get it)

5. Kalen Chock (Concept Art)

6. Michael McCann Composer

7. News stations and radio stations, social media, this blog and youtube promoters to promote the project and the links to Kickstarter and IndieGogo

8. A famous actor… Maybe Sam Worthington.. Worth a shot huh

9. the funding to make it possible, Almost there, I will meet my goal, and bring together more communities to make it happen.

10.  Luc Besson ( Iwill get him too)

I can do this, and I will. Of course not alone, I am going to need support, I would like to ask you if you can help in anyway, just to spread to help spread the word about redefiningmyenity and the Kickstart, Inidgogo journey!. Thank you very much for reading my posts I grammar filled errors But none the less I appreciate it and you.

I am ready to make a movie, and perhaps change the world in some positive way. My real goal with this is too , create a revolution of our own. Thank you.

About me:

1. I feel bad when I kills insects, I know ridiculous

2. I am a big softie

3. I can be mean

4. I am a fearful person

5. I am a fearless person

6. I try to love everyone and everything, I am actually very good at this.

7. I am learning a very important skill, patience

8. I face my fears and problems for the first time

9. I love being honest and having honor

10. I believe we can achieve anything.

11. I believe in everyone

12. I still respect dogs and animals as our equals

13. I eat meat and vegetables too

14. I have never smoked pot, no joke. But I have pissed myself drunk

15. I tell people I don’t cry at movies, honestly that would be untrue I cried to P.S I love you(don’t ask) and 300 “My Queen, My wife, My Love”. King Leonidas, gets me every time.

16. Movies I watched over and over as a little kid, Terminator 2: judgment day(for real), Seven Samurai, Dustin checks in, Indiana Jones! Star Wars (Big Fan, not of Hayden though)(or Jarjar), BackDraft(with my older bro), Ofcourse beauty and the beast, little mermaid, Aladdin! Lion King, True Lies, Total Recall, Die Hard (1,2,3), Jaws(~~^~~ dun dun), and a lot more.

17. I sometimes bust out with random weird humor, I actually cuss quite a bit, trying to cut it down.

19. I laugh at things people think are dumb.  laughing so hard you cry is the best. Three men that have ever made me cry laughing, My two uncles and my best friends grandpa.

20. I can be a pain in the ass

21. I have a crazy sense of willpower.

22. I am in love with the most beautiful woman in the universe.

23. I value love, over money, hope over overwhelming odds, first thoughts are always to  never limit myself.

24. I am in love with my beautiful sweet gorgeous unborn baby daughter, Aliyah Rose Caballero.

25. I want to help change the world.

My little video when I was 16: Anyone like the Predator:

http://s132.photobucket.com/albums/q16/sarge122/?action=view&current=predatorclip_0003.mp4&evt=user_media_share

My toys, I loved Metal Gear solid so at 14 I made my own video with them and edited both these myself.

http://s132.photobucket.com/albums/q16/sarge122/?action=view&current=mgs_0002.mp4&evt=user_media_share

I actually started my little videos at 12 with Steven Spielberg’s Lego movie studio set! Dang did I love that Lego set I made probably like a hundred videos, everyday before and after school weekends you name it.

At 14 I began teaching myself to use Adobe After Effects, my first skill learned was the Light saber:

Then muzzle flashes:

And explosions:

Haha I did these all around 14 to 15. Then at 15 I started doing green screen:

beautiful

Then after that I went nuts! At 18 I began getting into even crazier things:

I wanted to do this movie called VIR, will one day. It’s a superhero flick

I wanted to do my own adaptation of  Red Dawn (there already doing one, dang!)

At 17 I began getting into 3d animation and Cgi. I began working the the incredible program, E-on’s Vue Xstream! I made some wild pictures and islands and environments, sadly the computer I did it on crashed hard core and I was almost in tears when I lost it all. I began doing a lot of motion tracking, and 3d set extensions and just really fun stuff. I did this because finding some one as passionate as I was for film was hard, so I taught myself a one man show. Unfortunately that’s why I never got to do my own short film, the best was the Predator one haha. I was a determined 16 year old, my mom did the camera work on a older nikon digital camera. It worked fine! My work now is different and a little more complex. Now I work more with the camera and create new styles to adapt into film:

There was this photo contest online by Ron Howard and Canon these were the pics I submitted. I remember that day I wanted to take pictures that were of things you don’t see everyday, my sister and mom told me to go with them out into town. I said nah, i have to think about what I am going to do for pictures. Sure enough they get me to go. Something felt right about going as we started driving. I took my camera out of  its bag, and waited. I was curious to what i was going to see. My sister said I’m glad you came, your going to get your pictures. Sure enough no joke two minutes later, these abandoned hotels by the river were blazing on fire. And the fire department was working to put it out. I told my sis pull over!! I hopped out of the car and began snapping shots. No one was hurt, they were abandoned, but it was amazing to see, the heroic sight. Something you don’t see everyday:

I got the pictures I wanted, Thank the lord no one was hurt I would have felt awful. Still a Historic location was destroyed. It was really crazy to see.

The loves of my life:

My car, Max

My sweet baby girl,  Phoenix. 1 year and 2 months old and over 110 pounds

My Daughter Ali (Al-Lee)

And  of course the graceful girl, but I should ask her permission first before throwing a picture up, haha even though we are back together.

I didn’t know if I mentioned how grateful I am for her. I honestly would take up 36 posts just to write the way she makes me feel, best word for is just… wow. When they say she takes  your breath away, she really does :D . I am luckiest man in the universe. My love to Aliyah and Sarah. forever an ever ;)

By the way My Name is Christian Caballero, if I haven’t introduced myself formally or officially

This is me.

So I have to thank you all, I am very grateful for your follows and likes, and for putting up with my terrible grammar. I am learning as I go on :P

If you’d like an extra friend on face book :D

http://www.facebook.com/chris.cabbnomad

Thank you all, I wish for the best things in life to you. Christian

For Ali (Al-lee) & her beautiful mother love you both.

Appreciation to you

People thank you for your support and your follows and likes. I appreciate every single person on here. You are all making a difference in my life and I am sure in others lives as well. The vote presentation is almost done, and just want to tell you all, past viewers and new viewers that I am deeply grateful for you all and wish you the best in succeeding in your goals and dreams. I am already doing it, and when I get there I can preach more cause I have done it fully. You are all very special and I deeply appreciate that and I’m sure my little girl does as well! 

Thank you all, for real thank you.

I will continue to update as more progress comes up, I am making huge differences in my life and I hope it brings you your fortune or helps you too.

KickStarter project will be under way soon, A giant film festival is taking place in my town and the friends that I have that own a coffee shop are hosting it.. Time to recruit more and put the local crew together. I can I will and I already have.

Thank you again, just wanted you guys to know your awesome and today is a badass great day.

Thanks. Christian

here comes the funding…

For Ali (Al-Lee)

Here and Welcome

I’m here folks my second week here. a little scary, but none the less exciting. I have been working my ass off at the gym and have done some new things, I’m feeling great most days. Don’t get me wrong I still have my doubts and my days where I feel like junk. I still have trouble sleeping, mostly because I can’t stop dreaming of her and our past.. But I get over it quick. I want that girl to be happy no matter what. She deserves it, to finally be at peace and love life, I pray for it for her. I want her to have the world. Now I focus on taking care of myself, it’s a great feeling to be this lone nomad in this crazy world. I love this life, heart break and all you have to appreciate it always.. my support system is one of the best, friends from all over taking the time to give me strength and courage. I will not let myself down, and them. I feel awesome guys, its really great,Portland is an amazing city, people here drive a little funky. but so much to do it’s insane! I’m heading in the right foot steps for my dream, I think I might even start playing rugby again lol you guys have done wonders for me just by viewing. I’m starting to get myself back, still got work to do but loving myself. I’m a good guy, I care, I love, and I am being more supportive to friends and family than I have. I try to understands the complexities that people encounter, and feel in their emotions. I listen, I appreciate, I’m thankful.

I have a list of things I’m doing starting two weeks ago, And I’m being pretty successful

Be completely honest, no matter how the embarrassment strikes 😉

Be less angry, let them go. It feels much better to let the anger flow away, the things that bother me no longer do as much honestly. But I’m doing it.

Enjoy life, every minute of it, I love the things around me, I’m in a public library and just love it, it’s amazing here I snuck some pictures. I’ll post them later.

Last.. be myself, I’m an amazing person, I have the will of steel, I don’t want to be arrogant but I have to give myself the credit.. credit I deserve, I accomplished so much mentally and physically. I’m going to be very successful, just as long as My mind and I can have a mutual understanding. It’s my worst enemy, it’s what tore me apart in my relationship, and tore me apart in other moments in my life. It’s time to face it, and so far so good. I have the confidence and the strength to fight my way through tough times. I’m not going to be broken, and I’m not. I hope my ex is good and feeling as joyful as I, I really do, Graceful girl.. I pray for your success and your wishes to come true. A truly caring person hopes and wishes for the biggest and best for you. I have faith in you.. I have faith in myself, everything is going to be just fine.. In fact more than that. I am very proud of myself and the friends and family I have. And to the followers and viewers I would like to share this song with you.. It helps me out on my crazy days .. This song has  a feel of my emotions i n it.

The feelings I felt of

Pain

Sorrow

Regret

Happiness

Determined

Strength

Success

This song at 2:42 is like me stepping up again, dropping the regret sorrow and pain, an focusing on the bigger picture.. And sprinting for it, I’m going to be and already unstoppable in my pursuit.. and trust me I won’t ever stop.. I have that attitude and the balls to actually do it, I now finally practice what I preach, I am a true badass, don’t have to lie about it this time, I really am. in many ways I am, but I have the power inside me to go for it, and so I am. Anyone can do this, it’s just a state of mind, I pray for those that don’t have it to have the courage and respect to accomplish their dreams and goals with the highest success.

http://youtu.be/jtRhi-P_MjM

I talked to a friend the other night, well text, she was a person very close to me back in high school, I respect and admire this woman (there’s actually several people I truly admire) She told me something I always felt, and something I have actually heard before in different words though. She told me “I saw something in you”. I can’t explain the reason why I’ve felt so many people have told me this, but I feel it. There is this song I have always felt a connection too, I can’t really honestly explain but no bull shit I always felt like this song is talking to me, @ 1:15 in the song that woman’s voice (lovefoxxx). I feel like she is  talking to me , the song made me feel in my lowest times that there was something inside that drives me through it all, something that just has enormous purpose, an I know there is, I have an amazing combination of things, artistic(very very creative), Athletic, will power, strength, determination, love, passion, a feeling of emotion and love for strangers, and now honor, and honesty. I’m getting closer to being fearless. I guess being fearless, is conquering the fear you already have, and continuing to do that for the next set of fears and challenges.

http://youtu.be/MV_3Dpw-BRY

I love that, there really is something inside, I feel it, warmth, its a good feeling… I can’t take all the credit for all this, I have to thank God, my parents, My family, my friends, everyone and her(ya you helped 😉 and for that I am gracious and grateful for you all, thank you. You know  I have witnessed that the people can still exhibit love, and kindness to the person next to them. it really is a spectacle Thank you for that as well.

Lots of good people out there, It’s good to know.

Thank you, again Christian Caballero (By the way don’t forget my name.. I’m serious on that one.. it’ll be bigger than ever one day, it honestly will)

if you want add me on FB  an see how it  starts..

http://www.facebook.com/#!/profile.php?id=100003889728661