Appreciation to you

People thank you for your support and your follows and likes. I appreciate every single person on here. You are all making a difference in my life and I am sure in others lives as well. The vote presentation is almost done, and just want to tell you all, past viewers and new viewers that I am deeply grateful for you all and wish you the best in succeeding in your goals and dreams. I am already doing it, and when I get there I can preach more cause I have done it fully. You are all very special and I deeply appreciate that and I’m sure my little girl does as well! 

Thank you all, for real thank you.

I will continue to update as more progress comes up, I am making huge differences in my life and I hope it brings you your fortune or helps you too.

KickStarter project will be under way soon, A giant film festival is taking place in my town and the friends that I have that own a coffee shop are hosting it.. Time to recruit more and put the local crew together. I can I will and I already have.

Thank you again, just wanted you guys to know your awesome and today is a badass great day.

Thanks. Christian

here comes the funding…

For Ali (Al-Lee)


Thank you guys

Hey everyone, To the people who, read, followed and like my posts.. Thank you, Seriously thank you.. You guys have honestly made me feel stronger, by actually acknowledging and liking my crazy dramatic life long experience. I learned soo much in so little time, and have much more to learn, I didn’t say i was done’ I ain’t no Yoda.. More like whiny Anakin.. 😉 I saw my brother talking ugly to his wife and saw my dad be rude to my mother, and thought man what the hell is your guys problem.. appreciate those women. and love them, help them, comfort them. adore them. My dad should kiss my mothers feet and my brother should do the same to his wife. You know in my negative experience, it really helped my family in a way, after my dad talked nasty to my mom.. He did something he never did before, he apologized and said even when I do that it doesn’t mean I don’t love you… Doesn’t make it better that he bellowed, but he realized and took a small step but took a step in the right direction.. My brother has a nasty temper, after he gave his wife attitude, he said i’m sorry, she said it’s ok i’m used to it, he said ahh but you shouldn’t be, I’m sorry. So to the people that have read this. Especially the guys, unless your counter part is crazy and doesn’t go by the classy side of society and is unfaithful then don’t follow this advice. But for those who have women that they love. Don’t let your stupidity destroy your love. don’t let you testosterone end your moments, don’t let you faults be hidden away from her.. She seems them regardless.. Don’t lie.. If she so accepts you for you.. then stop fronting, stop bickering, stop being mean. be loving, be supportive, be appreciative, be happy. Life is too good to share alone. so don’t kill it.. if you have it don’t lose it. Cause being alone after having someone to share your happiness with is hard, and feels cruel, and if you don’t like standing up and moving on, and if you don’t like pain then cherish the woman that is meant to be for you. If the graceful girl is my meant to be, then she’s my meant to be and time and fate will figure it out, so I leave it to them. So everyone enjoy life.. enjoy it don’t be angry, I enjoy these moments. You too girls. If your man is an ass but you know that he loves and will try for you, then give him a tiny little break, but don’t let him or any body take advantage. Don’t underestimate your intuition either.. It’s your gift among many, I promise you it will serve you right, You guys are beautiful not just physically 😉 , but your whole dynamic and your nature is a real spectacle, no matter mad, crazy, indecisive, shopaholic, barefoot, nails and hair,speeding tickets, your tears, your golden hearts, your love for children and animals, your cleanliness, your humor, your silent but deadly’s, your liveliness, your emotions, your  privilege and honor to carry a child(not saying i want that honor or privilege by any means) but your everything is beautiful and fuckin cool.. Those amazing qualities are only few listed many more there, that are great. Girls are tough, really fucking tough, don’t underestimate them, cause they’ll kick you in the I know that every girl is not perfect but you all have it in you, and us guys too, we have it in us to be the men that are women love, and need and we need in life. enjoy it all, I do, it’s hard to enjoy this particular one but I have to appreciate it because it changed who I am and I how I see things in such a short amount of time, Honesty, compassion, respect, confidence(alil more than usual) ;), realizations, appreciations, faith and hope to fix and correct my errors, my passion to follow my dreams, Strength,honor,and love. I am a smart mother &$^$#@, I really am, not soo much book smart but that will change, I have the potential to do or be whatever i feel. I am lucky to have such a good personality at heart.. I am really.. At heart I am a good, respectful, loving, caring, super sensitive( I hate that part but i can work with it), strong, loyal person. I am proud of myself.. i really am. I think I’m going to be a better person in life.. just because i am acknowledging and praising my pros. And i am acknowledging and fixing my cons. There will always be pros and cons in a person and to being with with. But I want to lessen my cons, and have my pros stand out and out number my few less important cons. I am on the right track to being a true Spartan!! I have an extreme Spartan obsession, Like really extreme, i trey to live my life in Spartan method, Fearlessly, strong, Honorable, and loving. I wish i could put deadly but I ain’t in the military, and i’m not a murderer so I have to scratch that one, but my will power and my will to fight, and try is iron, especially now i actually for once  actually twice 😉 practiced what i preached.. 🙂 now it’s time to do it a third time.

Again thank you guys for listening, You have helped me in a bigger way than you’ve ever imagined, and to the people that are going to read this.. Thank you as well for stopping by and giving me support.. I feel you views and follows are support. If I can do anything for you guys.. Please let me know and I will try my damn hardest.. Except asking for money, I’m broke as a damn joke again..*sighs* feels pretty good 😉

Thanks. Chris.

Couldn’t stop thinking..

You know I have to say, I gave her what she wanted.. I want her to be happy, so I did what most people that are selfish (was me) won’t do.. I let her go.. I did it to hope for a better future.. a better one with her, my mother told me that good people receive all they give away… I would honestly still give my life for her.. I really would, I ain’t so cowardly you know.. I ‘m about 25/75% 75% courage and 25% stupid/weak. I realize more and more things every day. I gave the graceful girl 20% when she should have gotten my 100% not 110% cause that is in fact lame, but she deserved infinite %. I could have, and still saying should have. She is still all over my mind… Thinking of my new found courage, to just drop my job and move to a completely different part of the country is crazy, ha, but I’m fuckin doing it. You know out of all the moaning of me being a shit head and pleading my love for the graceful girl.. I never stopped to tell her thank you.. To actually tell her thank you for loving me.. I know i shouldn’t have too, but she made the biggest difference in my life, doesn’t mean I’m losing hope on the graceful girl, something tells me we’ll find each other again.. I thank her soo much for everything, the best times of my life, and showing me a new different perspective. I also have to thank her family for every thing as well, for taking me in and treating me like family. I really do appreciate the graceful girl. I hope you always know that. Break ups are tough shit.. They can totally make or break you, but this wasn’t a dumb high school relationship.. This was love, at it’s strongest truest form.. Graceful girl.. i’m ready to keep going forward.. I hope you are too. Everything is hectic right now, but you see very clearly, and I have the utmost faith in you to find yourself and find your way. Doesn’t mean goodbye for good, just maybe a goodbye for now. Now my friends I’m going to try an eat, probably a bite or two but I’ll try… I love you very much, and probably always will… don’t forget that…

Thank you to you guys following I’ll keep pumping this shit out, cause my head is full of it..